Sucks

What do you do if someone keeps digging at your wrongdoings?
What if you are being stereotyped for something bad that has happened before although you have tried to change?

Life sucks.

And to think you said you will treat me better.
Really?
The whole world knows all the bad things I have done to them.
Does the world know about what you have done to me?

Lost

Its just so difficult to believe what has just happened.
Totally unbelievable.
It is seriously making me lost.

Can't I even say my opinions?
Must I follow what you think?
It just doesn't make sense, does it?
Saying is much easier than doing.
And its totally contradicting.
Want me to be nice to him but also want me to betray and complain about him when he does wrong.
Makes sense?

You want to care about us.
But you just think the tangible stuff.
Do you try to accomodate our views and feelings?
You say I am irrational and talking rubbish.
You mean yours is totally logical?

I may be explosive, blunt and hot-tempered.
But I am like that when I see something I totally disagree.
When you shout and get worked up, you say you are like that, there's no choice.
Do I then have a choice?
Humans usually work on instincts and reflexes, don't they?
So if its my instinct to start yelling, I can't really help it right?
If you can be patient with his attitude and arguements,
you mean I am not entitled to that patience?

You think its so simple so as to just complain to you when something is amiss.
Some things are better left alone.
And some are manageable by myself.
If you keep seeing the ugly side of me, but don't know the other side,
Then I am sorry. You are mistaken.


It's difficult to not hold grudges against something you disagree...

Photos

Long time since photos appeared here right?
So now I shall post some :)


A card that I made for Mr Tong's farewell. The largest I have ever made. A3 size folded half.


Its 3D!!! :D


Some lame pop up to help make it less boring. Lol.


Cute and tiny floorball sticks.


Some floorballs which look more like golf balls to me.



My cousin.


She posed for this.


Like a Frederick.


Isnt she cute...



Some fireworks festival a week after National Day at the floating platform.





I like this one. :)





A rose( for NO ONE!!!) made out of eraser dust. Yes it can be done. :D


A pile of shit made from the same material.





A magnetic board made from cardboard and magnetic sheets for Mr Lim.


"The words can be moved!!!" :O


Our proud signatures. Took 5 hours plus okay.


Can be hung on the wall too! :)



A damn nice message board done by Sai Meng for the CHS teachers.


Secretly hung it on the wall in the staff lounge before Teachers' Day.


Very nice. :D



A birthday card for my Godpa. :D


A pop up birthdat cake inside!!!


The underneath of the cake. Took 2 hours wor.


My message. Written on paper and cut out along the edges.


The overall of the inside.



The final of the outside. Its a photo frame!!! :)





From wrapping paper....


To a small box!


The card inside the box.


Ta da!


:D Hope you like it!

Dumb.

It's torturing you. And you still do it.
It makes you cry. And you still do it.
It's doomed to be futile. And you still do it.
It's not going to bother him. And you still do it.
It's uncertain if he is ever touched. And you still do it.
It's hardly improving. And you still do it.
It's heartbreaking. And you do it.
It's the Universe's dumbest thing. And you still do it.

Why?

It's senseless. Stupid. Dumb.
To pursue something that you find imperative.
But he does not think so.

So it's your fault for being too sensitive. Too emotional.
Why can't you just give up?
Because it's too hard to swallow?
Or it's difficult to accept the fact?