Lost

Its just so difficult to believe what has just happened.
Totally unbelievable.
It is seriously making me lost.

Can't I even say my opinions?
Must I follow what you think?
It just doesn't make sense, does it?
Saying is much easier than doing.
And its totally contradicting.
Want me to be nice to him but also want me to betray and complain about him when he does wrong.
Makes sense?

You want to care about us.
But you just think the tangible stuff.
Do you try to accomodate our views and feelings?
You say I am irrational and talking rubbish.
You mean yours is totally logical?

I may be explosive, blunt and hot-tempered.
But I am like that when I see something I totally disagree.
When you shout and get worked up, you say you are like that, there's no choice.
Do I then have a choice?
Humans usually work on instincts and reflexes, don't they?
So if its my instinct to start yelling, I can't really help it right?
If you can be patient with his attitude and arguements,
you mean I am not entitled to that patience?

You think its so simple so as to just complain to you when something is amiss.
Some things are better left alone.
And some are manageable by myself.
If you keep seeing the ugly side of me, but don't know the other side,
Then I am sorry. You are mistaken.


It's difficult to not hold grudges against something you disagree...